一直在您身旁…

最近的疲倦, 谁来明白?
依靠自己, 坚持下去的脚步,
克服一切的困难。
虽然如此, 您的微笑我忘不了。

忙忙碌碌的, 但您始终在我心中,
如果可以, 我想要拥抱您,
再一次温暖的拥抱, 您愿意吗?

回忆过去, 许多事曾经是煎熬,
用一切, 换您的微笑。
我的笑, 可以很浪费,
是值得的, 起码我够慷慨。

不在您身旁，要会照顾自己,
不要哭, 眼泪要学习自已擦,
跌倒，学习站立起来。

我是如此疲倦却闭不上眼,
只需要知道您好, 我会微笑。
不委曲, 因为您拨动了我的心跳,
不说话, 只倾听你的耳语心跳。

如果我不是您故事的角色,
回忆我会收藏着,

感动我也会留着。

Will Anyone Come to me?...

Was sick these few days… Until now still yet to recover… I checked myself every morning and if I know I still can go to work, I'll force myself to get up and prepare for the day.

My body is weakening every time when it is almost reaching the end of the day. I reached home, taking out my keys and slotting the key towards the door-lock with my shivering hand. Finally I got in to my cozy house and immediately I feel comforted.

I yield towards the living room and upstairs “Anyone home?” Silence replied me and I know that I’m alone again.

Walk slowly towards the kitchen, there it was, a pack of takeaway-meal placed on the dining table, my heart give thanks by saying “ Thanks Mom.”

Without finishing my dinner, I put away my dinner into the trash-can, take my medicine and head on to my shower.

Lay down on my bed, I gaze at the ceiling in my room and my heart grips and turns sour. I tears, hoping there’s someone beside me. So, I whisper “Will anyone come to me…?” Knowing the fact that I’m alone now, it’s helpless.

Holding my pillow close to me, pretending I’m hiding under an arm.

Slowly the medicine take effect and I’m getting drowsy, my eyelids are like stage curtains closing after a day of performance.

In such tough life and weakening feelings, there’s only one thing that I will hold on to and to remind myself that I need to stand up and move on with my life. I need to be strong in order to care for the people who are close to me.

That is YOU.

Seeking you…

In the middle of the night my heart seeks for you. Your gentleness and kindness makes be swell in love and happiness. Your promises makes worth for me to serve and your unfailing love makes me realized that you are watching me everyday.

Breaks my heart for what breaks yours, all I want is to put a smile on your face. When I see you again, I wish to hear you say “Well-done”.

Let me be what you want me to be, let me know your purpose and what’s in your heart. So, send me to the place you want me to go.

Knowing you had given up your everything, my heart was amazed by such grace. Repeating a question my mind, “How can this be?”

You are someone always shows your constant love to me and to those who knows you.

Though there are times I turn away from you but you never leave me, I’m the one who leaves you. What can I ask for more?

Refine me, cleanse me, teach me, guide me, remind me, comfort me, strengthen me, hold me, sustain me, free me, embrace me, forgive me, rebuke me… these is what you to best. So, this is what I can surrender to you.

Your gentleness I will carry everyday.
I thank you for believing in me.

我不想再哭泣

我感觉很孤独，曾经以为很满足
没想到什么都抓不到
对着自己流眼泪，沉重步伐心疲惫
再努力却还是不对
为什么，心揪在一起
我不想再哭泣，把我的手交给您
再微笑，是因为我有您
我很美丽，因为有您我更爱我自己
一个深情拥抱，温柔的微笑
可以让我自由飞翔
我很美丽，您的爱让我认识我自己
没有惧怕，没有孤单

在您温暖同在中，爱环绕

人海飘航，多少风浪,

只要在您怀中，心坚强

是您 让我展翅飞翔
忘记背後努力向前, 生命已改变
以您完全的爱围绕我, 在您绝没有难成的事
飞翔, 远离灰色的地平线
朝信心的方向出发, 展翅上腾
飞翔 用您赐给我的眼光
看见未来充满希望

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在世界上, 有一种爱是永恒的,
祂说, 那些寻找祂的,都會找到祂

我已找到了, 你呢?

谢谢祢, 我的父.

Old Times, How Wonderful…

It’s been a while now my dear old friends, to work together, make things happen and having a great time.

Ever since everyone started working, we are busy with our own life and commitments. Meeting up and do things together seems to be very difficult already. I personally cherish every moment when we have chance of meeting up and do things together.

Yeah, this is really something for us to remember because this might be our last time working together. Furthermore, we do it with a purpose.

Although we seldom see each other but every time we meet up, I feel that we just saw each other yesterday.

Take good care my old friends.
Cheers.

Bangkok Trip:- Jul 08

I when to Bangkok for a visit... It's a very nice place. In terms of culture, people, transportation, it’s just simply pleasant and wonderful. I wonder why there are people saying that it is boring… hmm… Anyway, I wish to visit there again. Cheers.

When I Have a Friend Name Loneliness…

Working late at night, it is almost 9.00pm. I look around the place I’m working now. A lot of empty sits. There were people sitting there awhile ago but then the owner left its chair behind. Believing that my colleagues are having fun and resting at home, spending their time with their families; how I wish I am at home watching TV now and talking to my parents.

Gazing out the window of my office, the beautiful night of Kuala Lumpur touches my heart with its lightings and scenery. I gently pat the window with my fingers, my heart snuffle with silence and peace, then, here comes a familiar visit from a friend name Mr. Loneliness.

It’s been awhile I have him around me. I don’t feel comfortable when he is around. I don’t really entertain him as he keeps cuddle and bugging me.

I look at my reflection through the window, having a sudden thought of greeting myself. How funny can this be?

In that point of time, I know that I’ll be filling with loneliness and depression. So, I close my eyes and start thinking about my friends and people who I care and those who cares for me. Familiar faces I had known for years revealing from the center of my heart, pondering the happy moments and crazy things I had done with my friends. The times when my love ones was giving me encouragement and making me feel silly; it puts a smile on my face.

I feel happy and blessed with the people I know and I thought to myself that I’m not that lonely after all.
Returning to my desk, packing my stuff and ready to leave, I turn my head for the last time to take a short view of the night scenery of Kuala Lumpur. I gently smiled and step my foot towards home along the streets of quietness and peacefulness.